When someone asks me what my dream job is, I usually say "Writer/Author" and while I would LOVE to be able to write for a living, it is not exactly my dream job.

Today's confession is that being a Mom is my dream job. I have spent a lot of time over the past year trying to find my place, trying to find a job that I could wake up every single day and be utterly and completely happy going to. I've searched, found nothing that even remotely seems interesting. I do have an extremely great job right now and there is absolutely no other job out there that I have found that would make it worth my while to leave where I am at. That doesn't mean that I get overly thrilled to wake up every day and come to work, I just know how lucky I am to have the job that I do, the opportunity to have security where I am at. The ability to work with my family, spend quality time with my Grandpa and Dad is something that I love and something that would take an extremely awesome opportunity to want to leave.

I honestly do not feel that there is a job out there that will be able to make me feel fulfilled like being a Mother will. This is something that deep down I know I have felt for a while but the open realization and understanding makes a lot of things fall into place for me. I realize now why I just don't relate to a lot of my friends anymore, it's not that I don't love them or that I will not be there for them, we are just at different places. I do feel that we will all catch back up to one another one day until then we will always find our way to make our relationships work.

Now {for my family out there that will possibly see this} don't get panties in a bunch thinking we are having kids today, because that is NOT the case. Andrew & I are currently navigating our way through just being married, being us, working on our relationship every single day. We both know that kids are in our future, that has never been a question for either of us. It just has to happen in its own time and when it's right for US.

Until then I will enjoy my daily overdose of coffee & multiple glasses of wine at night all while pinning brilliant ideas for when we do decide it's the right time :P

Happy Tuesday everyone!!! :)

A quick trip to Home Depot for a hanging rack ended in picking out paint samples for our kitchen & purchasing a drill. Then on the way home Andrew wants to "swing by" Target {to get said hanging rack that Home Depot didn't have}, I laugh... There is no such thing as "swinging by" that glorious place. This ended in me purchasing the new Taylor Swift CD, a new bed for Khloe & Mab {they approved} & picking up supplies to make a cheese cake... Needless to say the main reason any of this shopping took place, we were not able to find.

Later that night we ended up at Barnes & Noble, which I was more than thrilled to browse through since I have a Kindle, going to the actual book store is a rare happening. I decided to purchase Lauren Conrad's new book Beauty {because I absolutely love her first one, Style}

Taylor Swift & Lauren Conrad in one day? I was one happy girl.

That evening while listening to the inspiring words of Miss Swift {who cares that I'm married, I can still rock out & love her songs about dumb guys... Let's be real, it doesn't change *I love you dear!*} & reading up on Lauren Conrad's beauty tips I realized just how much I have changed in the aspect of my own personal style.

I have always been enamored by Lauren Conrad's ability to look effortlessly gorgeous all of the time. Reading her books, learning the tips & tricks she has picked up over the years inspires me to take better care of myself, my skin, my body & to always present myself in a way that makes me feel my best. This doesn't mean that tons of makeup has to be applied {I have definitely learned that less is more} or that I have to wear the "in" name brand clothes. Rather to do what makes me happy & what makes me feel my best, after all Beauty really is in the eye of the beholder.

For me it's all about my mood. If I am feeling a little more sassy I'll dress up a little bit more than most likely necessary, but who cares {I used to worry about overdressing but not anymore}! If I am feeling cozy & comfy you will most likely see me in sweats and a hoodie at work or leggings and a sweater for a night out. I want to feel my best at any given moment, the second I started compromising that was the moment I realized I wasn't going to be happy no matter what I wore or how I looked.

Of course I am still a work in progress & most likely always will be that work in progress. I feel extremely lucky to have realized this because now I get to experiment with different styles, trends & beauty products without worrying about what anyone thinks but me {this doesn't mean I won't ask people for their opinions, I will fully admit there are times where I just need to be told "no" lol}. I am learning, though to find inspiration anywhere & everywhere, taking things that seem appealing then style them however I feel best in them. There are a lot of things going on in my life right now that are making daily things difficult to handle {things that one day I hope to be able to share openly} but for now I am taking a stand, taking back this control of who I am & how I present myself by simply being me...